I finally did it. I finally cut Aurora off for good. I just think it's funny how when things build up so much it never ends in a big blow out. It's always something so small, so pointless, but that's just all it takes to make you know for sure you're just fucking done.
She basically decided to get an attitude with me because I wanted to go out with friends that weren't her and didn't invite her. But the thing is the friends I'm going out with don't like her, she doesn't like them, so why would you want to go to a place where no one likes each other?
She drives for Lyft around San Diego so I asked her how much it would cost for her to give me a ride to San Diego since Ubers usually run around $30. She basically told me she was offended and wasn't driving me because I didn't invite her to wherever I was going. First I was going to go to a birthday party that Laura invited me to but I decided not to go and I was going to hang out with Willie instead. Laura doesn't like her, she doesn't like Laura. So I didn't think she would want to go considering the fact that they don't like each other. I also don't want to have to deal with the fact that I constantly have to coddle her at parties. She's so antisocial, and she's constantly insecure comparing herself to other girls that she ends up getting an attitude and taking it out on me. This has happened multiple times. But I still wanted to hang out with Willie so I offered to pay her just to take me to Willie's place. Willie fucking hates her. She knows Willie hates her and she hates Willie back so I didn't even think she would want to do that. Plus she's told me on multiple occasions that she refuses to hang out with just me and Willie because she feels like the third wheel. All me and Willie do is drink and talk shit about celebrities so idk where this even comes from but I'm literally doing what she told me she wants when I don't invite her to just hang out with me and Willie like she claims she hates doing.
But she basically texts me saying she's offended that I'm going and hanging out with friends and not inviting her. Why would I invite you to hang out with people who there is mutual disdain for? It's so fucking uncomfortable, I don't even know why she would want to put herself in that situation. She's basically upset that she can't leech off me socially because she can't keep her own friends. I'm totally down to share my friends and I have invited her to functions multiple times but the problem is my friends don't fucking like her. I can't help it that people don't like you! That's not my problem. Then she gets jealous that I do things without her like it's my fucking job to constantly make sure to include her in my social functions. It's really not. It's not my job to keep you entertained because you can't get any friends or a life of your own. It's not like I just asked her to drive me down to a party for free, I offered to pay her her rate and even give her a tip but now it's going to go to someone else because she decided to get a fucking attitude with me.
So I reached out to Lerissa because I decided I wanted to be messy. Aurora told me that I can't be friends with Lerissa and she doesn't like me talking to her because they don't get along. She seriously told me she would judge me and laugh at me if I became friends with her. Aurora burned bridges with Lerissa just like she burned bridges with literally ALL OF HER OTHER FRIENDS. Contrary to everything Aurora told me about Lerissa being some manic depressive drug addict Lerissa was actually really cool and we had a nice conversation. She calmed me down after the argument and offered to hang out. Hell I might even pull a Blac Chyna and marry her just to piss Aurora off. #PettyLife
I expected to feel sad because I really place a lot of value in my friendships. I care more about my friendships than I do about any relationship. Like I put way more work and effort and emotion into my friendships because they're important to me. But I don't even feel sad, honestly I feel free. I don't constantly have to walk on eggshells, I don't constantly have to deal with attitude from a person who's supposed to be my friend, and I don't have to continuing to try to make someone happy who clearly never fucking wants to be happy and is hell bent on destroying herself and all of her relationships.