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I hate fireworks!

Posted by Jozie, 02 July 2016 · 1039 views

So, I am sitting in the living room watching the fireworks and they're pretty and all, but with every boom that goes on, I keep seeing my apartment burn to the ground. I keep reliving the moment I walked up to see my actual apartment burning down! It was the most scariest thing I have ever lived through. Every year since then, I have always cringed at neighborhoods allowing fireworks to be put off willy nilly. I am scared from the moment I hear the first boom, until my mind realizes they have stopped. I hate 4th of July and New Years Eve. This is the first time I have even expressed this emotion or feeling towards fireworks, but that's because this is the first time I am living an apartment with fireworks going off right in my back yard!
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"Meeghan Yard said she had been visiting her sister in Cleveland and knew nothing about it until about 10:30 a.m., when she returned to discover her apartment had become a heap of rubble."

 

That was my best friend and roommate! I didn't have my cell phone to even tell her! I didn't know her number by heart to call her! I had no idea where she was.

 

"That bulldozer is sitting in my apartment, said Miss Yard, 20, who, like many of those displaced, lacked insurance. I ve lived in apartments all my life and never had it, never thought I needed it."

 

We made that decision together to not get renters insurance. The main reason was we couldn't afford it, but we thought nothing like this would happen.

 

This was my first "home" after being homeless for 4 months. Homeless and I had everything. We had only been living there for 2 months when it burned down! 2 months! We find a home and we lose everything. We worked so very hard for that home. We both had no place to live before that. Who would've thought that we would have been better off living in our car somewhere else?





I am terribly sorry to hear about that. My wife has the same fears, but they stem from extreme anxiety. I hope you can get some sort of peace of mind through this fourth!
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I am terribly sorry to hear about that. My wife has the same fears, but they stem from extreme anxiety. I hope you can get some sort of peace of mind through this fourth!

 

Thank you! This is the first year I have been extremely bothered by the fireworks and the flash backs are happening. It's weird, I thought I left that part of my life in the past... but then the new story popped up on my facebook as a reminder to be safe on the 4th of July and not to shoot fireworks off near homes or trees.

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Wow. I was clicking in here to commiserate with having a dog hiding under the desk and totally being in the way, but I REALLY underestimated the possible gravity of this entry.

I read the news article, and I'm stunned. Just, agape in silence. I hate fireworks, and miss living someplace where they were illegal (Go Arizona!). Every stupid fireworks holiday I see posts of people with limbs blown off and think: who decided drunk people needed access to explosives? I'd never thought about them burning down a building. Obviously, it's possible, and that's terrifying. Legitimately, not flippantly, terrifying.

I'm so mortified to hear this happened to you (and after having a place to live after so long)! I've never experienced a 'real fire' personally. I set my blanket and part of a wall on fire when I was 14 (fell asleep to a candle I wasn't supposed to have... because my mother's house burned down when she was about 14 and was terrified of us having unsupervised fire). Granma still talks about it sometimes. They lost everything. My husband's house burned when he was 15 or so, but they only lost one room and everything else was smoke damage (waterbed heater, if you can believe it).

I hate hate hate fireworks, and now I have even more reasons to hate them. I wish so much I could make this easier for you. I feel silly that my issue was cramped legs. And, please know that flashbacks are NOT weird; you probably have PTSD over the incident. (Yea, people throw it around, but it's a real thing that is often only triggered by similar events. Your house burned down by fireworks, fireworks bring episodes of fear; I was kidnapped, I get close to a panic attack then I see a silver saturn with a black bumper. If I can't help any other way, hopefully I can give some assurance that your reaction is normal and not weird.

(hug)

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Thank you @FelisNoctua (and yes I know tags don't work in blogs), yeah it is pretty hardcore today too. I just found it weird that this is the first time I have had any flashbacks or hardcore anxiety since the devastating event. I am watching TV super loud to muffle the sound, and at least today it's not in my back yard yet, but once we start playing Cards Against Humanity, I will have another distraction to the noise! I will probably put headphones in while playing CAH. My boyfriend has PTSD from the military and he just throws his big noise cancelling headphones on and plays video games. I personally wish fireworks were not allowed to be sold for residential use. I wish only certain licensed people could buy them for professional shows that the community drives to to watch! Thanks for the e hug as well! Always appreciated!

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