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So, trying the SSer for the first time and haven't been frozen. I haven't been able to really do anything else on Neo, but I'm above "participant" for the first time ever. I bounce back and forth between "I missed too many plots anyway, I should just quit" and "but if I quit, I'll miss all the other plots that come!" Too bad it seems like all the future plots are NC only anyway. I really missed the NP boat. Silly college.
Work is work. Got some good news, my program director says I can totally complete my thesis on time, if I can just catch up next semester, and to facilitate that I can take one less class. This works out because the classes I want to take are only offered that semester, and the one I couldn't give two craps about is offered all the bloody time. So, I can take the ones I want, work on my thesis, and stay on target. Less stress, more done. However, my advisor (after so much browbeating) FINALLY read the chunk of my thesis I gave him before the break, and today he emails me with "Your lit review is really a background/introduction". Ok, any specific examples? Any, examples I can look at? As time goes on I really really wonder if I'm cut out for this independent research in the sciences. I'm way more interested in the social side of things, but I keep butting my head against the science wall, because I DO like science and I have this notion that if I'm going to get a degree in anything, it should be SCIENCE. Fuck all knows why anymore. I can't even want to do this curriculum thing, in an interesting topic, for a textbook I would read for fun. I should have taken the nonthesis masters, but then they wouldn't pay me to go to school, and I couldn't afford it. Blarg.
Anyway, now to waste a little more time on this questionnaire thing, before finishing Chapter 11's reform.
1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?
Nope.
2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?
Me alone in the dark, no possibility of other humans, 1. Me in the dark as a female and completely attackable rapable murderable, 4.
3. The person you would never want to meet?
The other person from question 2. Or, the ex who kidnapped me to bury me in the desert. Fuck that guy.
4. What is your favorite word?
Bloody. As in bloody awesome. Or maybe awesome.
5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?
Linden tree. It's good for everything. The bark is medicinal. The fruit edible. The trees brewable.
6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?
Acne looks better! (stupid menses)
7. What shirt are you wearing?
Blue T with a pink owl on it.
8. What do you label yourself as?
Hmm, I don't anymore. I did just think "boring" "stagnant". I'm far from the geek/nerd/adventurous person I used to be. But not cosy/housewifey happy. Just. Blarg. I feel like I'm in an in between somewhere.
9. Bright room or dark room?
Bright
10. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Wishing time was closer to NST so I could start the SSer and get my games in. And thinking I should go to bed.
11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?
25? 27? Old enough to be adventurous, but I don't think I was in this bogged down state yet.
12. Who told you they loved you last?
Husband.
13. Your worst enemy?
Myself.
14. What is your current desktop picture?
Purple sunset over Blood Mountain (AT).
15. Do you like someone?
Romantically? Husband. Most days.
16. The last song you listened to?
That wasn't in a TV episode? Either a Lindsey Stirling, or maybe a Pentatonix. I was scrolling YouTube
17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
Guy from question 3
18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
Guy from question 3. Sometimes my sister.
19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?
Willing slave? Bill Nye. TEACH ME THINGS. Unwilling? I don't think anyone. Not up my alley.
20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)
I always had a nice waist. I'm 15lbs over right now, and still have a nice waist.
21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?
Hmm, probably some lithe strong male, so I could do adventurous things I can't physically do now. OOH. some rock climber, and then I'd go rock climbing.
22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?
Secret? Pretending I care, maybe? Wow I must be in a negative frame of mind, this Questionnaire makes me sound depressing. Sex. There you go.
23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?
Letting people down. Like, I seriously freak out that if I let someone down they'll never speak to me again. Parent issues?
24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.
I had this amazing grilled cheese sandwich once, with tomato slices and basil, thick mozzarella, that. Definitely that.
25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?
Probably going to sneak it only my student loans without telling husband I found it. WOOHOO! less interest later! Or tuck it into that "in case I need to run away" stash. Yes. Ever girl should have one.
26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?
Scotland.
27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?
Lindeman's Framboise. Raspberry brewed beer. NEVERMIND. Sandeman's Tawny Porto, 40yr (since I haven't seen them have a 50 in a while).
28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
Use only what you need, or what will not significantly impact others.
29. What is your favorite expletive?
Bloody. or Shit. Cause it was Moms.
30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?
The external harddrive. It has all the pictures, all my papers, my books, my diaries, scanned letters, it's everything.
31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
Can it be a two year span of mental/sexual abuse and kidnapping? Otherwise, the kidnapping part. nevermind, Can I erase from other people's life? Yes? Good. My brother getting sexually abused. His whole life, completely different, in a flash. That. Erase that.
32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!
This isn't even a question! Where do I move, maybe? Scotland.
33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?
Mom. but healthy.
34. What was your last dream about?
I don't remember. Bad at that. It was probably Neopets related, considering its what I was doing before bed.
35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?
cat? No I make a terrible cat. I can't catch mice, my claws just won't get sharp, and I've never been able to lick my own tail.
36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?
Yes.
37. Have you ever built a snowman?
Would you like to? Yes.
38. What is the color of your socks?
Black.
39. What type of music do you like?
Modern classical pop, like Lindsey Stirling. Or a Capella.
40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?
Sunsets.
41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?
Strawberry or like fruit.
42. What football team do you support?
None
43. Do you have any scars?
Mainly pet related.
44. What do you want to be when you graduate?
Was going to be a high school teacher. Or a housemom if I can swing it.
45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
My relliably pessimistic approach to life. <- ditto.
46. Are you reliable?
Less so than I used to be. depression sucks.
47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?
Is this degree worth the time?
48. Do you hold grudges?
I think it's hard not to, but I try not to let it influence decisions.
49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?
lynx and owl. GRIFFIN!!!
50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?
Usually that infrequent time when people either end up learning about my kidnapping.
51. Are you a good liar?
I always thought I was, but I think I'm not. Or perhaps, I don't want to be anymore.
52. How long could you go without talking?
Except to myself right? Thats just thinking outloud. Days. Including to myself? A day.
53. What has been you worst haircut/style?
When I was 12 I wanted a bob, but Granma wanted it feminine, so the haircutttery lady gave me this weird slashy choppy thing that would have looks like Flock of Seagulls had I moosed it. Day before pictures too. Of course.
54. Have you ever baked your own cake?
Yep.
55. Can you do any accents other than your own?
I'm a mimic, one of those people that unintentionally pick up and try on other's accents. I thought everyone did it, but apparently not. It was REALLY fun when working as a gate guard.
56. What do you like on your toast?
raspberry preserves. Or just butter.
57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?
A long necked cat. I've been doodling it for years
58. What would be you dream car?
I always wanted a classic beetle. Maybe sage green, or white, with sage green interior. Really I just wanted something smallish and fuel efficient that can fit a small life in the trunk and drive me anywhere.
59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.
Nah. i do take navy showers though, or boat showers. It's apparently unusual. Water on, get wet, water off. Shampoo, soap, rinse. Saves a ton of water you're not using anyway.
60. Do you believe in aliens?
microbial. If intelligent, I hope they avoid our moronic asses.
61. Do you often read your horoscope?
Never. It's fake.
62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?
W
63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?
Draaaaaagons
64. What do you think about babies?
Most days I think I'm over them, as I raised 5 cousins, but I think I want two, cause genetics and hormones and making the world a better place, but then I resent my dog because I can't go to the beach or camping or whatever.
65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.
Why didn't you actually go into that job/degree you really wanted to instead?
Money. And because I thought I couldn't hack the training.
Work is work. Got some good news, my program director says I can totally complete my thesis on time, if I can just catch up next semester, and to facilitate that I can take one less class. This works out because the classes I want to take are only offered that semester, and the one I couldn't give two craps about is offered all the bloody time. So, I can take the ones I want, work on my thesis, and stay on target. Less stress, more done. However, my advisor (after so much browbeating) FINALLY read the chunk of my thesis I gave him before the break, and today he emails me with "Your lit review is really a background/introduction". Ok, any specific examples? Any, examples I can look at? As time goes on I really really wonder if I'm cut out for this independent research in the sciences. I'm way more interested in the social side of things, but I keep butting my head against the science wall, because I DO like science and I have this notion that if I'm going to get a degree in anything, it should be SCIENCE. Fuck all knows why anymore. I can't even want to do this curriculum thing, in an interesting topic, for a textbook I would read for fun. I should have taken the nonthesis masters, but then they wouldn't pay me to go to school, and I couldn't afford it. Blarg.
Anyway, now to waste a little more time on this questionnaire thing, before finishing Chapter 11's reform.
1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?
Nope.
2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?
Me alone in the dark, no possibility of other humans, 1. Me in the dark as a female and completely attackable rapable murderable, 4.
3. The person you would never want to meet?
The other person from question 2. Or, the ex who kidnapped me to bury me in the desert. Fuck that guy.
4. What is your favorite word?
Bloody. As in bloody awesome. Or maybe awesome.
5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?
Linden tree. It's good for everything. The bark is medicinal. The fruit edible. The trees brewable.
6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?
Acne looks better! (stupid menses)
7. What shirt are you wearing?
Blue T with a pink owl on it.
8. What do you label yourself as?
Hmm, I don't anymore. I did just think "boring" "stagnant". I'm far from the geek/nerd/adventurous person I used to be. But not cosy/housewifey happy. Just. Blarg. I feel like I'm in an in between somewhere.
9. Bright room or dark room?
Bright
10. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Wishing time was closer to NST so I could start the SSer and get my games in. And thinking I should go to bed.
11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?
25? 27? Old enough to be adventurous, but I don't think I was in this bogged down state yet.
12. Who told you they loved you last?
Husband.
13. Your worst enemy?
Myself.
14. What is your current desktop picture?
Purple sunset over Blood Mountain (AT).
15. Do you like someone?
Romantically? Husband. Most days.
16. The last song you listened to?
That wasn't in a TV episode? Either a Lindsey Stirling, or maybe a Pentatonix. I was scrolling YouTube
17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
Guy from question 3
18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
Guy from question 3. Sometimes my sister.
19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?
Willing slave? Bill Nye. TEACH ME THINGS. Unwilling? I don't think anyone. Not up my alley.
20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)
I always had a nice waist. I'm 15lbs over right now, and still have a nice waist.
21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?
Hmm, probably some lithe strong male, so I could do adventurous things I can't physically do now. OOH. some rock climber, and then I'd go rock climbing.
22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?
Secret? Pretending I care, maybe? Wow I must be in a negative frame of mind, this Questionnaire makes me sound depressing. Sex. There you go.
23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?
Letting people down. Like, I seriously freak out that if I let someone down they'll never speak to me again. Parent issues?
24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.
I had this amazing grilled cheese sandwich once, with tomato slices and basil, thick mozzarella, that. Definitely that.
25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?
Probably going to sneak it only my student loans without telling husband I found it. WOOHOO! less interest later! Or tuck it into that "in case I need to run away" stash. Yes. Ever girl should have one.
26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?
Scotland.
27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?
Lindeman's Framboise. Raspberry brewed beer. NEVERMIND. Sandeman's Tawny Porto, 40yr (since I haven't seen them have a 50 in a while).
28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
Use only what you need, or what will not significantly impact others.
29. What is your favorite expletive?
Bloody. or Shit. Cause it was Moms.
30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?
The external harddrive. It has all the pictures, all my papers, my books, my diaries, scanned letters, it's everything.
31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
Can it be a two year span of mental/sexual abuse and kidnapping? Otherwise, the kidnapping part. nevermind, Can I erase from other people's life? Yes? Good. My brother getting sexually abused. His whole life, completely different, in a flash. That. Erase that.
32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!
This isn't even a question! Where do I move, maybe? Scotland.
33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?
Mom. but healthy.
34. What was your last dream about?
I don't remember. Bad at that. It was probably Neopets related, considering its what I was doing before bed.
35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?
cat? No I make a terrible cat. I can't catch mice, my claws just won't get sharp, and I've never been able to lick my own tail.
36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?
Yes.
37. Have you ever built a snowman?
Would you like to? Yes.
38. What is the color of your socks?
Black.
39. What type of music do you like?
Modern classical pop, like Lindsey Stirling. Or a Capella.
40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?
Sunsets.
41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?
Strawberry or like fruit.
42. What football team do you support?
None
43. Do you have any scars?
Mainly pet related.
44. What do you want to be when you graduate?
Was going to be a high school teacher. Or a housemom if I can swing it.
45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
My relliably pessimistic approach to life. <- ditto.
46. Are you reliable?
Less so than I used to be. depression sucks.
47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?
Is this degree worth the time?
48. Do you hold grudges?
I think it's hard not to, but I try not to let it influence decisions.
49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?
lynx and owl. GRIFFIN!!!
50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?
Usually that infrequent time when people either end up learning about my kidnapping.
51. Are you a good liar?
I always thought I was, but I think I'm not. Or perhaps, I don't want to be anymore.
52. How long could you go without talking?
Except to myself right? Thats just thinking outloud. Days. Including to myself? A day.
53. What has been you worst haircut/style?
When I was 12 I wanted a bob, but Granma wanted it feminine, so the haircutttery lady gave me this weird slashy choppy thing that would have looks like Flock of Seagulls had I moosed it. Day before pictures too. Of course.
54. Have you ever baked your own cake?
Yep.
55. Can you do any accents other than your own?
I'm a mimic, one of those people that unintentionally pick up and try on other's accents. I thought everyone did it, but apparently not. It was REALLY fun when working as a gate guard.
56. What do you like on your toast?
raspberry preserves. Or just butter.
57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?
A long necked cat. I've been doodling it for years
58. What would be you dream car?
I always wanted a classic beetle. Maybe sage green, or white, with sage green interior. Really I just wanted something smallish and fuel efficient that can fit a small life in the trunk and drive me anywhere.
59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.
Nah. i do take navy showers though, or boat showers. It's apparently unusual. Water on, get wet, water off. Shampoo, soap, rinse. Saves a ton of water you're not using anyway.
60. Do you believe in aliens?
microbial. If intelligent, I hope they avoid our moronic asses.
61. Do you often read your horoscope?
Never. It's fake.
62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?
W
63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?
Draaaaaagons
64. What do you think about babies?
Most days I think I'm over them, as I raised 5 cousins, but I think I want two, cause genetics and hormones and making the world a better place, but then I resent my dog because I can't go to the beach or camping or whatever.
65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.
Why didn't you actually go into that job/degree you really wanted to instead?
Money. And because I thought I couldn't hack the training.
