I finished my first year at uni with a set of spectacularly difficult (and disorganised) exams but that was the only negative in what had been an amazing term of partying, studying, new friends and new experiences.
Now I'm home - I'm back in my dinky little village, I have no car, all my friends live at least two or three bus journeys away, I've been tied down to a gazillion shifts at work (because the boss has had two resignations ), I'm miserable and generally just feel shitty and lethargic.
So I've wallowed in this for about two weeks and I'm sick of myself. Turned down a couple of opportunities to go out this weekend for no good reason (was even offered a lift there and back) apart from that I felt down and thought I'd spoil the mood. I know I'll regret making choices like that; I already do.
Time to combat the negativity starting with the small things.
Daily goals:
- Exercise (could be a fifteen minute dog walk, or a jog, or a bike ride - just get out of the house and off the computer)
- Read (this one's good because I have a LOAD of books I've been meaning to get to and the summer is the perfect time)
- Text friends back (takes two seconds and there's absolutely no reason not to apart from laziness)
- Eat more fruit and veg (no more instant food laziness. also - cook for mum and dad more often. additionally, vitamins are good for you)
- Take up a sport. I'm thinking raquetball, my dad mentioned he'd like to play sometime.
And in general:
- Make plans with people and stick to them (no letting anxiety win and chickening out)
- Less lying
- Way more self-respect (duh lauren of course you're going to feel like shit if you think you are shit)
- Smile more (((((((((((((((:
- Learn! Do something productive every day. Get on duolingo or read a journal
Hopefully writing this shit out will be helpful in getting it done and not just spending all my non-work minutes moping around the house
Now I'm home - I'm back in my dinky little village, I have no car, all my friends live at least two or three bus journeys away, I've been tied down to a gazillion shifts at work (because the boss has had two resignations ), I'm miserable and generally just feel shitty and lethargic.
So I've wallowed in this for about two weeks and I'm sick of myself. Turned down a couple of opportunities to go out this weekend for no good reason (was even offered a lift there and back) apart from that I felt down and thought I'd spoil the mood. I know I'll regret making choices like that; I already do.
Time to combat the negativity starting with the small things.
Daily goals:
- Exercise (could be a fifteen minute dog walk, or a jog, or a bike ride - just get out of the house and off the computer)
- Read (this one's good because I have a LOAD of books I've been meaning to get to and the summer is the perfect time)
- Text friends back (takes two seconds and there's absolutely no reason not to apart from laziness)
- Eat more fruit and veg (no more instant food laziness. also - cook for mum and dad more often. additionally, vitamins are good for you)
- Take up a sport. I'm thinking raquetball, my dad mentioned he'd like to play sometime.
And in general:
- Make plans with people and stick to them (no letting anxiety win and chickening out)
- Less lying
- Way more self-respect (duh lauren of course you're going to feel like shit if you think you are shit)
- Smile more (((((((((((((((:
- Learn! Do something productive every day. Get on duolingo or read a journal
Hopefully writing this shit out will be helpful in getting it done and not just spending all my non-work minutes moping around the house