kbexx

I was on the lower end of weight scale for a long time but am now on the higher end of things. I've gained a lot of weight the last few years; i'm not obese, but am overweight. I have had a few doctors make really rude comments about my weight, including an endocrinologist who I was seeing because I genuinely want to know what was wrong with me, and all he did was give me a sheet on healthy eating, which really just showed he hadn't even looked at the food diary I gave him. That upset me a lot because I wasn't expecting it from an endocrinologist. Around the same time, I had a personal trainer that I was working with last year who would accuse me of lying about what I ate because he couldn't wrap his head around the fact that I wasn't losing weight because calories in/out wasn't adding up. I feel like people don't believe my food diaries now when I'm overweight, but never had dieticians/nutritionists/etc doubt what I was eating when I was normal weight.

I also used to get ridiculous unsolicited diet advice from my ex housemate who a) eats very unhealthily, like she would eat a whole tray of brownies in a night, at least a few nights a week, and b) had no real understanding of nutrition. She'd talk down to me  when I went for a run and acted very superior, even though she rarely exercised. She was so condescending. one day, I walked four hours and back to a fruit/veg shop that has a vegan cafe. I had wanted to drive there and buy a treat because I had been working hard, but I couldn't get out of the driveway as her car was in the way. I ended up buying a raw vegan bar/cake thing and bringing it home with me, and planned to have it the next day like it was birthday cake. She saw me walk in with a piece of 'cake' and made a really hurtful comment along the lines of "it's great that you don't care about eating cake and getting fatter." Wanted to slap her because even buying a piece of cake like that was a big deal for me with my thought patterns in the past, and also I had gone for a four hour walk so yeah, SO WHAT IF I ATE A PIECE OF HEALTHY CAKE ON MY BIRTHDAY THE NEXT DAY?! (She is a horrible person and really riles me up). I feel like a lot of people assume that I eat crap food all the time because of my weight, but I honestly don't know anyone who is as aware of the food they eat as I am, since I have lots of food intolerances. People assume I eat too much, when I actually don't eat nearly enough thanks to some disordered eating patterns I had when I was younger. I believe that I slowed my metabolism a lot as a teenager with my disordered eating, and I really struggle to fix some of those patterns. 

I don't think I've noticed much else other than unsolicited advice. I haven't really been asked out since I gained weight, but at the same time, I've been unwell for just as long, so it's not like I'm going out and seeing people anyway. If I felt as rubbish as I do and was skinny, I'm sure it would be the same. I feel like people judge me when I am buying food, sometimes, but that could be me projecting as I have a lot of guilt around food when it comes to treating myself. I also feel judged when I am buying protein powders/bars at supplement shops, which I probably am because they're not exactly the most supportive places. I like to have those because i know that I underrate and hope that eating more might boost my metabolism. It hasn't worked yet, though. 

eta: sorry for the essay. apparently I have very strong feelings about this/i feel the need to elaborate excessively after experiences on reddit lol with the CALORIES IN/OUT police. 

yeah it's for firefox. I like kad feeding but always forget to go back and check, so I just highlight stuff and start check for change up. I usually set the refresh to anywhere between 5-60 seconds depending on the time of day. Like afternoon/night here is a super slow kad feeding time so it doesn't matter if I'm a little off as I can still feed. I still miss quite a bit because it really isn't any easier than just refreshing yourself. In fact, sometimes it is harder because you can be engrossed in something else and then you have to switch over to kads, whereas if you're refreshing yourself, you have a good idea when kads will go.  Like, just as I was writing this, I got the notification that kads went, so had to stop writing and switch over.  I've never used an auto feeder or anything, so can't really compare. I don't really know if it's safe or anything, and probably isn't that smart to just refresh constantly, but I honestly don't do it all the time.

eta: it can be tricky with minis and mains at the same time, especially if you've already fed in one round. What I do if I've already fed, is I only highlight the kad that I fed and the 'thanks kbexx' part, so if that was part of main and mini goes, I won't get notified again. oh and just as a general rule, if I feed, I tend to turn off the refresher for half an hour after main.

I had zero games on my phone, but just got a new one and now I have a heap that I'll play for a few weeks then delete. like that britney spears app. gross. embarrassing. pls don't judge me.

Yeah, I guess that's true.

Sort of interesting, I remember reading that AMA thread with Donna and she said she'd kinda wished they hadn't done McDonald's promos at all, because kids weren't really their target audience in the first place.. or something like that. 

Yeah, I remember reading that too. But I mean, if they hadn't hooked most of the current user base as children, would the site still be going?

Same here! The old McD's toys actually look pretty good. Who knows, maybe JS will eventually do something that makes Neo popular enough again that would warrant happy meal toys

Maybe? But I feel like it just isn't the right sort of platform for kids anymore. The games that little kids play are things where there is a lot more instant gratification. You see progress quickly, and goals are more short-term ones, rather than things you work towards for a long time. If they somehow got neo to be attractive to kids in that way, it wouldn't be the same.

I'm a little pessimistic I suppose!