AtomicKitten

According to Noscript https://www.google.c...-8&oe=utf-8 this script is all over youtube (I haven't allowed it) with a filter over each video, since a couple days ago. Google says it's malware.
EDIT: thanks to google search I tried the mozilla adon SearchReset, it seems to have fixed it!
For now it looks like it was just on my end.
I'll post more if it happens again!

Hi! I was wondering if anyone was up to the implementation of different site skins or themes for the Neocodex?

I'll admit to having a personal reason for asking - I'm sensitive to color therapy and this shade of dark blue (or any blue darker or bluer than caribbean) does unpleasant things to my psyche.

I can cope well enough by continuously scrolling a few inches down so I don't see the theme, but I figured it couldn't hurt to ask if there could be some options implemented to choose from.

Thanks for your time!

Hi guys!

So I just recently admitted to being lowkey into Twilight, but I am high key into Alice, Jasper, Rosalie and Carlisle and always have been! (It's the rest, plus Stephanie Meyer's super problematic views and abusive content that gives me pause! But there's no reason I can't enjoy characters and ideas and want to rescue them from her clutches, is there?)

 

and I was wondering if anyone on here made neosonas and had an idea of who they might be for the Cullens?

Especially the four mentioned, and Double especially Alice (who I will love until the end of time!)

I'd like to see customs (just because I seriously adore those), but what I'm Really looking for are UCs ideas to see if any would inspire a UC OC (original character)!

TW: Anxiety, Depression, Seasonal Affective Disorder

I'm an impatient person by nature, but usually I find little ways to distract myself. A show to watch, a character to write, something to day dream about. Whatever helps pass the time between what I want to happen and that thing actually happening.

I've mentioned in my introduction that I'm wheelchair mobile, and sometimes the inability to do things for myself just gets to me. I hate having to wait for other people for things, I hate having to wait at all. That's just a natural part of my life that I try my best to mitigate, with tv, with roleplaying, with whatever strikes my fancy so I can keep a positive outlook and not take my frustration out on those around me.

Some times it's easier than others. It comes in waves, levels I can handle and levels I can't at all. A sense of helplessness and powerlessness can really be maddening sometimes. Add that to depression, where something as tiny as knocking over a glass of water can be enough to just completely destabilize your entire day - and you can see the combination would be rough.

The trouble is, when I get anxious, my imagination and enthusiasm for things dries up. All I can feel is the looming stillness and oppressive slowness of time as it crawls by. Still without whatever it is that I need coming to pass.

Add depression, especially the kind that comes when it rains and my severe seasonal affective disorder takes over, and the smallest of things being in other people's hands, even if it would be a waiting game for anyone, make me worry and it dials up the anxiety until I have clawing in my stomach, tenseness in my shoulders and it's all I can do to stare at my screen/phone/inbox/email while I wait for people to get back to me and try desperately to block out the rain.

The rain which hasn't left me alone for one second today and shows no signs of stopping tonight. Which has already spiraled my thoughts into useless frenzies more times than I can count today. -sighs-

It should be a small thing, and any other time it might be. But I have been waiting three days for answers from three entirely separate groups of people and no one has been around to answer me and it's driving me up the wall. None of them has the time to realize that I can't move forward with what I'm trying to do unless they help me.

As I'm writing this, one of the people gets back to me to be absolutely no help. Perfect.

I'd like to know what you guys do when what you want is in someone else's hands, be it a big thing or a small thing. How do you cope with it? How do you handle the waiting? Much less the wondering and the worrying? What helps calm you down? what brings back the chill and allows you to focus on things that make your life better instead of whatever is taking more time than you wish it was? How do you become okay with giving up control over the outcome of what you want or need without giving up the wheel altogether?

And, how do you cope when the outcome isn't what you were hoping for? How do you handle it when someone finally comes back only to tell you that whatever it is you wanted isn't something that can happen?

 

UPDATE: Since I first wrote this a week ago (on another site) some of what I wanted has slowwwwly sllowwwwly started to happen. But it keeps stalling and starting. People offer to provide what I need and then back out. So! any advoce you have would still be super helpful!

Hey guys, ask me anything! (check out my intro thread if you want a good place to start!)