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Sat, 05 Jul 2014 07:59:00 +0000

I iz follower.

How old would you be if you didn’t know how old you are?

18. Old enough to enjoy my childhood and enjoy adulthood but not old enough to truly appreciate a cold beer.

Which is worse, failing or never trying?

Ya gots to fuck up to learn.
If life is so short, why do we do so many things we don’t like and like so many things we don’t do?

Life isn't fucking short. 75 years?! If doing something I hate for 5 of those years gives me stability in the following 50, sign me up.

When it’s all said and done, will you have said more than you’ve done?

I talk too much so probably.

What is the one thing you’d most like to change about the world?

~~Make pokemon real~~ I have no answer.
If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?

The ability to make obnoxious children shut up.

Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you are doing?

Both. Settling for what I'm doing in order to do what I believe in.

If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?

Fuck bitches make money.

To what degree have you actually controlled the course your life has taken?

I'm a college student who lives with his parents.

Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?

Can't I do the right things correctly?

You’re having lunch with three people you respect and admire. They all start criticizing a close friend of yours, not knowing she is your friend. The criticism is distasteful and unjustified. What do you do?

Depends if the criticism is merited.

If you could offer a newborn child only one piece of advice, what would it be?

Not everyone that shits on you is your enemy, not everything that cleans you off is your friend.

or

Be nice to everyone, you never know when you'll need a favor.

Would you break the law to save a loved one?

Sure. Jaywalking is a crime.

Have you ever seen insanity where you later saw creativity?

Yu Gi Oh is a hell of a drug.

What’s something you know you do differently than most people?

I talk funny.

How come the things that make you happy don’t make everyone happy?

Their consciousness isn't built like mine and my consciousness isn't built like theirs.

What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What’s holding you back?

Join the Peace Corps. 'Errbody (including myself)

Are you holding onto something you need to let go of?

I need to use the restroom...?

If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?

State: Washington because it sounds cool and coffee.
Country: UK because I can't imagine enjoying tea more then coffee.

Do you push the elevator button more than once? Do you really believe it makes the elevator faster?

I know it doesn't but why the hell not.
Would you rather be a worried genius or a joyful simpleton?

Having the intellect to fix what worries me sounds better then not knowing what I could improve upon.

Why are you, you?

*insert monologue about a cave, shadows, and chains*
Have you been the kind of friend you want as a friend?

I sure hope so.

Which is worse, when a good friend moves away, or losing touch with a good friend who lives right near you?

Meh.

What are you most grateful for?

The fact that I have people that care about me being late to school.

Would you rather lose all of your old memories, or never be able to make new ones?

Lose my old memories. The past is overrated.

Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first?

Ask gravity.
Has your greatest fear ever come true?

Nope.

Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?

I can't even remember what I wore yesterday.

What is your happiest childhood memory? What makes it so special?

Someone told me the monsters at Universal Studios were real. I thought I had survived being attacked by mummies and dinosaurs.
For that afternoon I was "Romy L*** Conqueror of Beasts"

At what time in your recent past have you felt most passionate and alive?

I got laid yesterday. Does that count?

If not now, then when?

What?

If you haven’t achieved it yet, what do you have to lose?

No entiendo.

Have you ever been with someone, said nothing, and walked away feeling like you just had the best conversation ever?

1) Having a really good match in Pokemon Showdown/Smash Brothers/Street Fighter/Monster Hunter.
2) Sex
3) Reading ahead of someone else when reading a good book and seeing their reaction when they reach the plot twist.
4) A really good hug.
Why do religions that support love cause so many wars?

Absolute power corrupts people and organized religion places absolute power in the hands of people.

Is it possible to know, without a doubt, what is good and what is evil?

Nope. There is such a thing as necessary evils.

If you just won a million dollars, would you quit your job?

Nope.

Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?

More work I enjoy. If you're doing what you hate, even 4 hour shifts can drag on for days.

Do you feel like you’ve lived this day a hundred times before?

No. I'm too easily entertained for that.

When was the last time you marched into the dark with only the soft glow of an idea you strongly believed in?

Ideas don't light up rooms...?

If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?

Chappy.

Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?

I'm already extremely attractive (cry) and fame doesn't seem important.

What is the difference between being alive and truly living?

This sounds like the premise of so many cliche songs.

When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?

When I've got nothing to lose (never?).
If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?

We don't learn from mistakes, we learn from consequences. We're scared of the consequences.

What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?

Fart/burp whenever I wanted.

When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?

I have a whistling booger right now.

What do you love? Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?

Aside from a person? Er...being able to go someone and be along with my thoughts. I took a really long shower this morning.

In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday? What about the day before that? Or the day before that?

Nope. We've established that I can't even remember what I wore yesterday.

Decisions are being made right now. The question is: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?

Depends what decisions. Living in a country with an established set of laws kind of makes a decent percentage of my decisions for me.

Meh...why not?

Sun, 15 Jun 2014 21:58:31 +0000

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
My dad!

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
When my aunt died...?

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Sure! Slanted and messy

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Turkey.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
Nope!

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Fuck. I'd hope so.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
Yup.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
Yup.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Yup.

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Fruity Pebbles!

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Yup.

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
I work put.

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Chocolate anything.

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Face!

15. RED OR PINK?
Red.

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
Uh....I hate cardio.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Currently nobody

18. ARE YOU A MORNING PERSON?
If I have to be.

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
No shoes!

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
Banana

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
Some random documentary about Stalin.

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
Green!

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
No idea...rain?

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Chappy!

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
Mountain!

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Does Smash Bros count?

27. HAIR COLOR?
Black as my soul..

28. EYE COLOR?
Brown.

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
I can't T_T
30. FAVORITE FOOD?
Spaghetti!!!

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
Scary movies!

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
Uh...Hangover II?

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
Dark blue!

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Winter!
35. HUGS OR KISSES?
If a random stranger tried to kiss me, I'd be weirded out.
So hugs?
Or kisses from the right person

36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
Cheese cake!

37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
Ew. Strength training x1000000000

38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
Comp!

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
Nothing currently

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
None.

42. FAVORITE SOUND?
Music by The Classic Crime

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
Beatles.
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
Guatemala.
I live in the US.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
Lolno

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Los Angeles, California, United States

47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
Los Angeles, California, United States

48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?
Verde.

49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
No car

50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS?
meh.

Death sucks.

Mon, 02 Jun 2014 04:57:00 +0000

Death is a deceptively simple action. When an organism dies, it's vital bodily functions just end. The organism just stops. It is no longer able to reproduce, breathe, communicate, cry, or even be receptive to pain.

Months ago, I lost someone. His name was almost as unique as he was; Osveli. He was about 5 feet tall, had slicked back hair, an awesome handlebar mustache and spoke Spanish with an undeniably Guatemalan accent. Osveli rode his bike everywhere. He rode it to work, church, dinners and lunches. Normally, I'd treat him like another member of my church but...it was his personality that quickly earned him my respect and admiration. He was undeniably kindhearted and humble. If you were cold, he'd give you his jacket. If you were hungry, he'd go to the nearest food joint and buy you something. If you were broke, he'd pull out what ever money he had in his wallet and give it to you. Whenever we would try to repay the favor though, he'd just tell us to do the same for someone else if we noticed another in need. Needless to say, I was absolutely devastated when he told me he was returning to Guatemala. I couldn't object. I loved him like a brother but...I couldn't ask him to stay in a foreign country with no real family.

A few months went by and I just kinda lost contact with him. I used to call him ever so often but..time passed and the distance got the best of me. Around the time the Spring semester started however, the pastor of my church announced that Osveli had been shot and stabbed to death. Turns out, Osveli was shopping in a small store when some gangsters came in to rob it. He attempted to wrestle a gun away from one of the thieves in order to save a cashier but was unsuccessful and shot in the process. He was then stabbed to death by another gangster.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't cry. The image of him dying at the hands of someone still haunts me. Here was a man who didn't have an evil thought in his life and...him dying so abruptly..hurts. My not talking to him hangs in my heart. I really would love nothing more then to have a cup of hot chocolate with him.
It's still very much an open wound.

This wouldn't be an easy time for me yet though. I had an aunt named Ana. She was a loud mouth, playful and selfish. If you got the last piece of bread she wanted, you'd know. She'd curse at you but simultaneously make you laugh harder then you've ever laughed in your life. She was the life of which ever party she went to. She was the kind of person that could make you nearly pass out from laughing even if you just saw your dog get hit by a car. She was THAT awesome. Unfortunately, she was diagnosed with cancer in her spinal cord and it quickly spread to her entire body. She went from always speaking loudly to barely being able to speak at all. I keep trying to hold on to how she was before the cancer; a mean, loud and hilarious woman but..it's getting harder and harder.

I keep seeing the chemotherapy chipping away little by little at her.

It wasn't until after she died that her daughters revealed in how bad shape she really was. The cancer had not only caused her kidneys to fail but also metastasized in her brain. She held on to her memories and personality but...the pain was relentless. Part of me was happy to hear she passed. She wouldn't be in any pain. My only regret was that I couldn't make the trip to San Francisco to see her before she died. I'll try my hardest to hold on to how she lived before the cancer however. I owe her that. I can't let her memory be eaten away by her disease.

I know this is not the best place to post this. I don't want pity. I just needed to desahogarme. Maybe it will make me feel better, maybe it won't. One person was hard enough but...two is hard. I've never really had to deal with death at all. I've tried to remain optimistic through this but it's getting harder and harder. All of this happening around my finals and birthday certainly aren't helping since I'm starting to find it harder to focus and be happy.
Chappy being there for me has helped me keep myself together much better then I would have been able to alone though. She really is amazing <3

I'm going to end this here since I'm rambling. Sorry for my bucket of emo Codex.

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Death sucks.

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