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[Lucian]

Sometimes when I see people random people while driving around, I wonder what their lives are like and what kind of troubles they're going through. I also wonder if they're going through or have been through the same things as me. Makes me wonder a lot. But most of the time it's really humbling and I become more aware and thankful for the things I already have. BTW, aren't you supposed to be on a break finding inner peace Cody?

[Ali]

I quite often have the thing where I realise I'm only 21. Grew up a little too young so I often forget I'm not about 5 years older than I am. I've lost a parent, I've got married, I've lived away from home for years, I own property, things a lot of people don't do at this age. So now my future all seems a lot closer than it actually is.

[iargue]

Stop Posting when your away. Its creepy.

[luvsmyncis]

I quite often have the thing where I realise I'm only 21. Grew up a little too young so I often forget I'm not about 5 years older than I am. I've lost a parent, I've got married, I've lived away from home for years, I own property, things a lot of people don't do at this age. So now my future all seems a lot closer than it actually is.

You're only 21?!?! Expect your mid-life crisis at 25, then. 

I will be turning 26 pretty soon, but I still feel like I'm 16. I don't know where all the fucking time went. Probably spent most if it watching TV.

I'm not really sure what this thread is about, but when I was in college, I would purposely schedule large gaps between my classes so I could sit somewhere on campus and just "People Watch". Just people walking to and from class, or sitting on a bench eating. I'd judge their hair and clothes, and laugh on the inside if they dropped something or tripped on a curb. It was like some sick non-sexual voyeurism. I don't make up stories for them, because I really don't give a shit about their lives. I suppose it was the behavior that most interested me. Might have just been my stalker tendencies, but I'm grateful for my odd curiosity because it's how I started following/met/hooked-up with my one-true-friend.

[Georgina]

You're only 21?!?! Expect your mid-life crisis at 25, then.

I will be turning 26 pretty soon, but I still feel like I'm 16. I don't know where all the fucking time went. Probably spent most if it watching TV.

I'm not really sure what this thread is about, but when I was in college, I would purposely schedule large gaps between my classes so I could sit somewhere on campus and just "People Watch". Just people walking to and from class, or sitting on a bench eating. I'd judge their hair and clothes, and laugh on the inside if they dropped something or tripped on a curb. It was like some sick non-sexual voyeurism. I don't make up stories for them, because I really don't give a shit about their lives. I suppose it was the behavior that most interested me. Might have just been my stalker tendencies, but I'm grateful for my odd curiosity because it's how I started following/met/hooked-up with my one-true-friend.

Firstly, your 26??? wow had no idea!!! Would have put you about 18

And Secondly.....you basicly stalk people untill they become friends with you ?

[luvsmyncis]

Firstly, your 26??? wow had  no idea!!! Would have put you about 18
And Secondly.....you basicly stalk people untill they become friends with you ?

I stalk people I find interesting and eventually we become friends. 
How do you think I got you to send me chocolate? Think about it. 

[Ali]

You're only 21?!?! Expect your mid-life crisis at 25, then.

It's already setting in. *Gloom*

+1 on didn't realise you were 26.

[luvsmyncis]

That means you guys think I'm immature.

My ego is now one big dangly softie.

[Ali]

That means you guys think I'm immature.

My ego is now one big dangly softie.

I just never tend to think of people as older than me. I am 21 so NOBODY can be more than 21.

[sonic]

There are 3 types of niggas.
1 The 9-5 mother fuckers. respect
2 the dudes on their grind playing the game trying to move up
3 the spectators who sit around talking and thinking and hating

your falling into catigory 3. .
I Think your unhappy with your life and instead of changing what makes you unhappy your just trying societys go to scape goat. The drug game. stop trying to be someone your not.

hussstllleee bitch
smoke that dank
and get some mother fucking pussy

Stop Posting when your away. Its creepy.

STOP POSTING ALL TOGETHER

[Faval]

STOP POSTING ALL TOGETHER

What they said. You've been posting while you're suppose to be finding yourself dude. Get to it. Don't be lazy and unmotivated now

[myob12345]

So this happens to me pretty frequently, especially recently, but I will start going off into my thoughts and at some point I think of my age and realize that I'm not as old/older than I think I am... This has happened probably 4 times this week.

Earlier, I was going about thinking and I realized that I'm not 24...

Some other examples are like... I will be thinking deeply about the life of someone else and I will sometimes have to remember that I am not that person... like I completely leave my body and go into theirs... only to slowly come back and realize I have a body of my own. I think this is actually how the age thing usually happens.. I'll be off thinking of someone else and then their age somehow reminds me that I am not them...

Now this is all sober... but I can recall times where friends have completely forgotten their names on psychedelics before... normally that experience doesn't bother me... I'm just so happy being Here. Now. That not having an ego to attach myself to is so burden free...

So, other than clear schizoid personality disorder (), I can only assume that this is simply a result of me having a softened attachment to my ego... so soft of an attachment that I will detach entirely from time to time and just float on...

I don't REALLY know where I'm going with this... but I kind of wanted some input on if things like this happen to other people often or if maybe you guys have anything to add about ego detachment etc...

This has become too frequent recently for me to just pass it off without a second thought...

so yar.... in true StM fashion...

Discuss

care to elaborate a bit more? how often does this happen? do you really, literally, think you are the other person, or was that statement more of a metaphorical thing?

also schizoid personality disorder is more of a detachment from others, so it's not exactly what you've been describing.

Edited by myob12345, 16 November 2010 - 03:46 PM.

[myob12345]

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Edited by myob12345, 16 November 2010 - 03:43 PM.

[yoongguk]

I think I have a really inflated ego, which I really hate. I'd like to get rid of it, but I'm not really sure how you would even go about starting.

I do get what you mean about forgetting yourself and "becoming" another person. I do that when I'm listening to a sad song usually. I zone out and imagine I'm a completely different person that just had something horrible happen to them. Its usually my escape route from reality if I'm feeling shit.
Either that or play neo... Which itself is saddening now that I think about it.

[luvsmyncis]

I think I have a really inflated ego, which I really hate. I'd like to get rid of it, but I'm not really sure how you would even go about starting.

You're a lazy piece of shit who needs people on a Neopets cheating site to tell you to get off your fucking ass and go for a jog.
Did that help?

[yoongguk]

You're a lazy piece of shit who needs people on a Neopets cheating site to tell you to get off your fucking ass and go for a jog.
Did that help?

Haha! I already know that

[Raui]

Sounds alot like ego death - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ego_death
I had an experience once while meditating where I felt one with the universe and completely forgot/ignored personal things and just observed and it was the most peaceful thing thats ever happened to me in my whole life. The experience lasted about an hour.

[sonic]

What they said. You've been posting while you're suppose to be finding yourself dude. Get to it. Don't be lazy and unmotivated now

god

with all these nooobs you gotta be so specific.
gotta feed the baby bird.


cody is the homie. iargue is well, shit I dont wanna get banned.

Edited by sonic, 17 November 2010 - 08:05 PM.

[iargue]

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Oh no... looks like it's too late after all. =/

R.I.P. homie. You still got those digits.

He cant read your post?