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[HappyAccident]

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I'm so bored.

Edited by HappyAccident, 02 May 2018 - 09:40 PM.

[sprockets]

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I've had low self esteem from as long as I've known what self esteem was. I can tell you that the route cause is likely due to my parents (primarily my mom) and that even though I know she loved me, I can't help but believe otherwise because how the final 10 years of her life went. 

 

So here I am today, thinking "is this fixable? if it is. how do I go about fixing it?" I don't think I'm necessarily depressed, but at the same time I do struggle with finding meaning to my life and catch myself saying "what do I bring to the table? Life goes on, whether you're there or not"

 

I know that I shouldn't base my self worth on other people's perception of me and that is a dangerous path to go down.

 

Probably should start speaking to a therapist

Edited by sprockets, 07 May 2018 - 07:46 PM.

[Rocket]

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I've had low self esteem from as long as I've known what self esteem was. I can tell you that the route cause is likely due to my parents (primarily my mom) and that even though I know she loved me, I can't help but believe otherwise because how the final 10 years of her life went. 
 
So here I am today, thinking "is this fixable? if it is. how do I go about fixing it?" I don't think I'm necessarily depressed, but at the same time I do struggle with finding meaning to my life and catch myself saying "what do I bring to the table? Life goes on, whether you're there or not"
 
I know that I shouldn't base my self worth on other people's perception of me and that is a dangerous path to go down.
 
Probably should start speaking to a therapist

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While I personally hate therapists, I have seen many, I truly believe that they can help. If at first talking doesn't help, short term (or long term) medication can help, that's something to consider.

I went through a very difficult period in my life where someone constantly told me I was worthless and even though it was 10+ years ago, I still struggle today with the feelings, especially since the "abuse" happened when I was young and impressionable.

I hope you find the help you need and are able to work through whatever you're going through. <3

[Kat]

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As much as I hated the idea of medication, being on something for my anxiety/trich/depression has helped me so much, it's hard to believe.

I hope everyone can find the kind of relief that I have

[sprockets]

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While I personally hate therapists, I have seen many, I truly believe that they can help. If at first talking doesn't help, short term (or long term) medication can help, that's something to consider.

I went through a very difficult period in my life where someone constantly told me I was worthless and even though it was 10+ years ago, I still struggle today with the feelings, especially since the "abuse" happened when I was young and impressionable.

I hope you find the help you need and are able to work through whatever you're going through. <3

 

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Thanks <3

 

I've always personally wondered about therapist (thanks to Arrested Development I think of a different name for them, lol) because it's like "how would talking to someone professionally be a different experience than talking with someone who isn't a professional, is it just paying to have someone listen to my problems?" Of course it's also a "don't knock it until you try it".

 

It's weird, it's not even like my childhood was filled with instances where I was told that I was worthless, being constantly second guessed or even belittled, etc. it's probably more of an abandonment issue that causes me to feel the way that I am.

 

At the end of the day I guess all I want is to be reassured that I'm wanted and that I matter

 

[Scot]

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Thanks <3

 

I've always personally wondered about therapist (thanks to Arrested Development I think of a different name for them, lol) because it's like "how would talking to someone professionally be a different experience than talking with someone who isn't a professional, is it just paying to have someone listen to my problems?" Of course it's also a "don't knock it until you try it".

 

It's weird, it's not even like my childhood was filled with instances where I was told that I was worthless, being constantly second guessed or even belittled, etc. it's probably more of an abandonment issue that causes me to feel the way that I am.

 

At the end of the day I guess all I want is to be reassured that I'm wanted and that I matter

 

 

 

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Have you considered the magic of anti-depressants?

 

[Adam]

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I thought Black Panther was good, but I don't see why there was such a massive hype train behind it. The only 'wow' moment for me in the movie was seeing Wakanda for the first time.

[Kaddict]

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I thought Black Panther was good, but I don't see why there was such a massive hype train behind it. The only 'wow' moment for me in the movie was seeing Wakanda for the first time.

 

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Ya, I thought it was absurdly overrated. Like, better than Iron Man 2, cap america 1, hulk, maybe ant man, but worse than most others imo.

[Scot]

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I thought Black Panther was good, but I don't see why there was such a massive hype train behind it. The only 'wow' moment for me in the movie was seeing Wakanda for the first time.

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Shuri's actress is hawt

[Romy]

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I thought Black Panther was good, but I don't see why there was such a massive hype train behind it. The only 'wow' moment for me in the movie was seeing Wakanda for the first time.

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I had to write an article for this movie for my school's magazine! Tl;dr the movie carried a lot of cultural and racial capital with people of color. The movie itself was "okay" but people were thrilled to see a black super hero at the helm. It's a super good movie if viewed through a particular lens.

 

 

 

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Shuri's actress is hawt

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  Hawt as fuck.

 

[Keil]

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I broke off a friendship by making the other person think I'm the worst person in the world rather them letting know they do nothing for me emotionally and talking to them is a burden.

 

More than once.

[Swar]

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I started listening to Brazilian funk because it plays in every single party, so I wouldn't feel as left out not knowing any. I really despised funk, but because of the parties I felt ok about it; wouldn't listen on my own, but wasn't bothered by it. Then got to a point where I liked some here and there, though they were fun. Now I actually like it. It's honestly a very guilty pleasure, but I don't fucking care

[Kaddict]

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I feel bad bc I only recently realized that someone here must have failed out of school and thus having to change plans from their cream job, but hasn't said anything. Their personality has changed too, but I am not close enough with the person to say anything, nor would I really know what to say.

[Ladida]

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I feel bad bc I only recently realized that someone here must have failed out of school and thus having to change plans from their cream job, but hasn't said anything. Their personality has changed too, but I am not close enough with the person to say anything, nor would I really know what to say.

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Tell them that this is only one moment in time, that it's just a pause. Tell them to focus on other things until they're ready to try again. Keep furthering themselves in any way, small ways that will add up. Because that's all you can really do. Pause for a moment, but don't stop longer than that. Keep moving, keep trying.

[Scot]

Guys I'm standing right here. How could you

[Ladida]

Guys I'm standing right here. How could you

Keep moving, keep trying @Scot! 

[Coops]

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I'm feeling kind of defeated lately. Every time we make headway with my health, I get knocked down again, by some new symptom, some new problem, or by some old symptom that just decided to be extra problematic, or maybe it's because when I put one fire out I just happen to realize something else has been on fire too. I've been basically couch or bed bound since Friday because my heart is being a stupid fuck and my autonomic dysfunction is being extra shitty so I every time I move I feel like I just got off a rollercoaster, get super weak and pre-syncopal. I just want my health to stop sucking so much.

[sprockets]

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I started listening to Brazilian funk because it plays in every single party, so I wouldn't feel as left out not knowing any. I really despised funk, but because of the parties I felt ok about it; wouldn't listen on my own, but wasn't bothered by it. Then got to a point where I liked some here and there, though they were fun. Now I actually like it. It's honestly a very guilty pleasure, but I don't fucking care

 

This sounds fun, can you link me to some of your favourites?

[Rocket]

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I just want to watch the world burn.

[Karla]

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I'm developing an unhealthy addiction to old horror movies, good and bad. My current obsession is Sleepaway Camp.

[jcrdude]

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This isn't so much as a confession as it is a completely out of context picture of last Halloween's costume

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[Jibrille]

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Disappeared for 2 years, I don't know how to interact here anymore, but wish it was possible. I don't think people remember me anyway

 

[Rocket]

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Disappeared for 2 years, I don't know how to interact here anymore, but wish it was possible. I don't think people remember me anyway

With it being slow it can be hard to interact, but just jump in! I remember your face btw

[Shannon]

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I was doing so much better on a new medication - happier, slower to anger, optimistic - but then the last few days it seems like I'm going downhill again. I'm so tired of feeling so sad and taking out my misery on people I love. I feel like I'm really a loving, caring, positive person, but I hate how I've become lately. I just want to be better.

[Coops]

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It's been a really hard summer for me and my mental health is struggling so much. It's been one clusterfuck or disaster after the next. Normally, I'm really capable of coping, but I have nearly no support systems in real life at the moment (all of my support is online) and that's made it very difficult for me to handle constant barrage of shit. And I know I should probably go back to therapy, but I'd rather disengage instead of doing the work required to survive.