QUOTE(Cody @ Sep 18 2006, 09:00 PM)

heh.. you don't think I realize that it is all my own fault? You don't think I realize that? It's not barking rocket science...
I have no life in this new city... I know no one, I go no where, and I stay to myself.. I'm completely tired of life and I just want a quick relief from the monotony.. some of you see that as unfitting.. and I understand that.. I realized I was being a whiney bitch when I wrote it.. but sometimes, you just need to write things down..
whatever... I just hate this sobriety shit.. it sucks to go from never sober for two years straight to sober for two months and just to expect myself not to still want it.. I'd become so submerged within the drug culture that I forgot drug use was illegal.. one day I was going 110 in a residential smoking pot, with coke, lortabs, weed, and alcohol within the vehicle... and I forgot any of it was illegal.. I was just chilling and then I realized how much shit I would've been in had I gotten stopped.
You may not understand or agree with my descisions but I felt the need to write how I felt.
<3 Cody
I can respect that, I thought you where just bitching, but I now relize you where trying to get the load off your mind. Do what I did, ever time you have to urge for any of it, just run, plain out run till you collapse on the ground, trust me, it helps majorly to get arid of the cravings. Stay drug free, it's better then getting busted and sharing a cell with bubba *shudders* the people at codex are always here for you to come to.