Sometimes I just want to talk about my life to people I don't know - tonight is another one of those. I've been around here for so damn long...which is why I choose to come here to do this.
Carrying off of the back of this one:
http://www.neocodex....you-on-my-life/
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That engagement that I was so excited about was short lived. The girl I proposed to in May took a trip to Italy to visit some family members in August, and upon her return we were set to sign a lease on an apartment and move in together. I was pretty good pals with her neighbor and stopped by to chat for a few when she was out of town. Well...turns out she never left - I saw her out and about outside her house. She didn't see me and I pretended not to see her at the time.
The next day I went over with her things in tow, gave them back to her, and told her it was over. I didn't have to explain why, she already knew. The tattoo I got on my ring finger commemorating our engagement was simply covered with a solid line of black ink. Her and I still chat occasionally, but I haven't seen her since and I have no desire to. She got back with her son's abusive father, and they're engaged - dodged a bullet, I feel.
I'd managed to dig myself into a financial hole during this time with reckless spending on borrowed dollars, and time came to pay those dollars back - I didn't have it. As it sits right now, I'm $500 negative with other bills to pay on top of that - pulling $1200 a month was absolutely not cutting it. Fortunately business has been good at work and I'll be able to climb out of that hole next week.
Between her and I splitting and just this last Saturday, the days just kind of blended together and I was flowing through like a zombie with nothing at all special to look forward to. The days really to seem like one big thing when there's nothing worth caring about separating them. Its honestly quite miserable. And then something..or someone that separated the uninteresting days reared her beautiful head.
I met my current interest in September at a work-related corporate training event. She's a coworker but I'd never seen her before, and a mutual friend introduced us. I friended her on Facebook and began the shy-guy trying-to-make-actual-friends with her...took a while, and I made three passive attempts to get her phone number so I could talk to her more. Shot down all three times...damn. A short while later she asked me to work on her car (me being a mechanic and all), and I finally got her phone number. So we're just talking about when/where I'm gonna do said things to her car, and I asked what I was getting out of this endeavor. I was told to tell her what I want, and my lightbulb turned on. I typed in the text message box, "How about you just let me take you out sometime?" and thought about whether I should send that or not for at least ten minutes. The brave side of me reared its amazing head and I hit send. She said okay. I never pursued this any further because I just kind of figured she was agreeing because I was working on her car. Whatever!
Last Tuesday (about a month and a half after the aforementioned event) my coworker told me in confidence that she asked him when I was going to actually make plans with her to go out. This gave me light that she wasn't just agreeing to keep her end of the deal. I immediately went and hunted her down (believed me, a car dealership is a big place) and made plans with her for that Saturday. I picked her up that night and...well, it was by far the best date I have ever been on. There was no end to the flow of conversation - and for the first time I was able to speak exactly what was on my mind - you see I think in memes (damn you internet) and...well, so does she. We went to an outdoors concert with some damn bands that I've never heard of and enjoyed the 46 degree evening. She got cold and YAY CUDDLE TIME. OH GOD SHE'S ACTUALLY INTO ME MAYBE FUCK THIS IS AMAZING. She got cold and we left, walked around Freemont Street for a little while, and decided to head back to my car...and got lost. So we're wandering around downtown Las Vegas for like 45 minutes lost as all hell. YAY ADVENTURE TIME. Found the car, went to iHop for breakfast-dinner, and I took her home. A hug and a kiss on the cheek? Fuck this night could NOT be any better. I can't get this girl out of my head.
Anyways...that was really the whole point of this. I just wanted to talk about my new interest and our great first date in immense detail to a whole bunch of strangers.
I might end up spending this Christmas at home alone - my brothers and my mom are all going down to California to be with the rest of my family, and I have a 75% chance of having to work on Christmas eve (Saturday) when they're leaving Friday night. A pretty depressing thought at this point, but we'll see how that pans out.
Not as much to share as my last post, but like I said...I just wanted to talk.
Once again, +5 if you actually read and paid attention to that wall of text that has absolutely no meaning to you, whatsoever.
and some edit
Another coworker Justin just called me and told me he talked to my interest tonight and she asked if I was going to take her out again. Of course he played none the wiser, but he knows - and phoned me and let me know what she had to say. Accordingly, she had a great time and wants to go out again. But this makes me wonder. She's a very, very clever girl and knows Justin and I are good friends - of course he's going to tell me what she's got to say. I wonder if she's talking to him on purpose to provoke me to make more plans with her.
