You feel hate because you don't agree with others' views?
Also you say people abominate naked bodies. How so?
It's not exactly this. It is that I don't understand them and what they do looks filthy and I abominate it... I get sick of it. I don't really hate, it's like, they look gross to me and I want to be far away from them.
People abominate naked bodies at the same time they don't. I'm afraid it's too hard for me to explain, and it can be even that I made that up and it doesn't make any sense at all.
I'm having a hard time understanding what this is about, but I'll do my best because I really want to respond to this for some reason.
I try to be pragmatic about people. Some people are ignorant, some people are stupid, most people are selfish. Some people are content to live an unexamined life, which despite my understanding of this usually brings about the familiar feeling of disappointment. Some people take their personal issues out on other people. Some people don't realize just how shitty they are. I'm a little more trusting than I probably should be, given this information, but I've gotten more cynical in the last couple of years so I'm nowhere near as vulnerable as I used to be.
If I spent my time working up feelings every time I thought someone did something shitty I would be pissed off and hurt all the time. As an angsty teenager that might have been more my cup of tea but I have too much shit to do now to get so worked up over things and people that I cannot change. I don't always succeed, sometimes I get pretty pissed off about things; but then I try to remind myself that people, in general, suck.
It is somewhat what you just said, even tho I wanted to go deeper on the case.
There's a quote from myself that maybe can help you:
"The problem is, why do people attach so much value to viewing someone's butt? What is the "fun" of that? What does it really mean? What's the point of saying: "wow, that booty bitch" or "oooh, I want to slap that ass". WHY slap an ass? It is ok if you want to feel it, how soft it is, but slap? Wut? You like slapping/beating? You think it's ok to go slapping someone's butt? Why is it?"
I can't understand and I want to try and understand it, so that I won't abominate people that much.
And I used to be SO trusting. I always said/say I don't want to trust, but I somewhat trust anyway. I'm trying to stop being so naive. Or is it vulnerable, just like you said?
