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[Gnome]

Kinda random

 

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I actually really like the store HotTopic

WTF! CHAPPY! 

 

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I am looking at houses right now

[pancakeface]

Sometimes ignorance is bliss.

 

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It just seems that way because of their ignorance.

 

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I wish we could go back to how things were 40-some days ago... even if only for a little while longer...

 

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What happened 40 days ago?

 

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Sometimes when there are murder cases in the news, I check how attractive the alleged murderers are and wonder if their appearances were relevant to the murder

[Alexiel]

 

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What happened 40 days ago?

 

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It was a happier moment in my life. Had a lot of hope, potential, and dreams. 

Had some incredibly interesting and rewarding conversations. Some of the best I've had in years. 

I miss all that. Especially the conversations... especially... the conversationee...

Though... I am thankful for the time that I did have... and what became of it will always be carried at my core, my existence, my self. 

 

Alas, it was too short though... and life never works out as one hopes let alone plans. And while I'm doing pretty damn well now, and have grown as a person... become a better person because of that time... I'd give anything for just a few more days of it all. Even more for a lifetime's worth...

 

Foolishly, I keep hoping to wake up one day and see... idk... some sort of message... or sign that things could maybe start to be rebuilt... a new foundation laid, a freshish start... or that things could continue as if nothing changed...

That I'm wanted and welcomed as open as my metaphorical doors will always be...

Waiting in silence with a spark of hope that could never be completely extinguished... even against all odds and logic...

Edited by AoKnight, 12 April 2015 - 07:35 PM.

[NapisaurusRex]

Real eyes realize real lies.

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I GOT DEM REAL EYES.

 

Sometimes I wish I could just be a fool, and nothing or no one would make me realize how much of a fool I'm being.

 

Does any of that make sense?

Yes, it makes sense.

 

 

I wish I had more to add to that, but I just don't. I'm sorry.

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The bitch in me hopes this is referring to someone totally different than who you're referring to

THIS probably makes sense to you now though

[Swar]

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I made an account on the other forum lewl #NoShame #YesAllForums

[pancakeface]

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My music is too loud, adjusted volume with mouse wheel.

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 Still too loud, adjust again.

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 Almost muted but still too loud.

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 Realized I'm listening to music on my phone.

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after closing this tab, I did it again   

[Swar]

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My music is too loud, adjusted volume with mouse wheel.

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 Still too loud, adjust again.

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 Almost muted but still too loud.

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 Realized I'm listening to music on my phone.

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after closing this tab, I did it again   

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I do that all the time lmao I feel so stupid after realizing xD

[Rocket]

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when people post screenshots of texts from their SO's or post about how much they love/are in love with each other.. it really makes me want to barf...

 

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..because I'm jealous of people in love.

[Sharkbait4]

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I wish I took advantage of internships during college. It was only 4 months ago I graduated but looking for jobs in a market that caters to Ph.D holders sucks

 

[Alexiel]

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Have a choice to make, and I'm no longer certain what is "right" for me.

25 days (and counting) ago I quit smoking marijuana. This decision was based 90% on... well, I did it for someone I cared for and about 10% for myself.

Since then it's become more about me. Almost 95%. (That other 5+% keeps me inspired when I'm at my weakest.)

To the point I've even gone so far as to cut out my idiot, druggie friend from my life because he was ultimately a toxic influence.

And I know, to damn near everyone it "isn't addictive" and "doesn't cause health problems" and "worse things to be addicted to" etc. but it was a problem in my life whether I wanted to admit it or not.

 

It hindered me from being eligible for job opportunities, it made me lazy, I read less, and spent way too many hours in front of the tv playing games or watching things.

Healthwise I feel better. I'm more likely to go out and do, explore, and experience.

Lots of other good things I'm forgetting, I'm sure.
But now I have a job so I have extra money and no longer need to be clean.

The person I initially quit for... unfortunately isn't as big of a part of my life as I'd have liked...

And lately I could really, really use a smoke to get through some shit...

Plus it helps with my sleep, anxiety, stress levels, etc.

Not to mention it makes things better. Tasting things, especially fruit, is an incredible experience. Sex is just mind blowing... a fully body and mental experience on a whole different level. I'm more likely to enjoy some of the things I've given up over the years... gaming more, watching & enjoying animé, etc. Things that make me happy that non-stoned me just isn't that big into otherwise.

And I like the mental stimulation some strains bring. The other perspective it sometimes helps inspires me to see.

Some of my best college papers was power written while stoned. My philosophy professors especially loved those. lol

Hell, even one of them ended up published & getting me invited to a Language & Linguistics Conference my senior year.

 

 

But it's like... idk who I am anymore in this regards.
I'm not anti-marijuana by a long shot. I'm still for legalization and taxation even though I choose not to participate.

And I have no intention of smoking on a daily basis. Letting it consume my life again (gd addictive personality).
I'd probably just smoke on my days off, nights I pull double shifts, and holidays. Y'know, 8ish times a month if even that.

Though a part of me would actually prefer even less. Like only when I truly need to or whatever.

But even then a part of me feels guilty now.

Like I've come this far, why throw that all away?

Even though I no longer have anything to prove to someone, anyone else... I guess I still have something to prove to myself.

Though even still a small part of me doesn't want to let either of us down. 

 

 

So I guess I know my answer now... or have a pretty good idea...

But man, some days are harder than others to keep sober.

But hey, if I can get past this then it's only a matter of time before I can apply this to other vices and such in my life.

Cut out the junk food, cut out soda (even the diet stuff), etc etc.

...or maybe I'll just learn better control. After all, someone once said "pan metron ariston" (everything in moderation).

[majestictuna]

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I cry- nonstop- when I watch Black Beauty. I hate that fucking movie. And Where The Red Fern Grows. When my husband feels like being an asshole he'll suggest we watch that movie. I said yes to it once. Never again.

[Shannon]

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I was so conflicted about missing Game of Thrones last night to meet up with my fwb that I almost called him "Jon" (Snow) during sex.

[Swar]

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I was so conflicted about missing Game of Thrones last night to meet up with my fwb that I almost called him "Jon" (Snow) during sex.

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Maybe that means he DOESN'T KNOW how to please you!



sorry

[Shannon]

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Maybe that means he DOESN'T KNOW how to please you!
sorry

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Oh, he knows something alright. Ygritte's not the only lady who loves a lord's kiss.

...I just made myself uncomfortable.

[Swar]

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Oh, he knows something alright. Ygritte's not the only lady who loves a lord's kiss.
...I just made myself uncomfortable.

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It's okay, I don't judge.


Okay, I do a little bit.

[Liesa]

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I've got a few of 'erotic' illustrations I'm dying to share but this obviously isn't the place for it.

[Padme]

I have a front wedgie.

Wearing a dress so no one can tell. Now all of you know

[Shannon]

ALSO 

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some of those posts here are actually cringe inducing.

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I cringe at and regret everything I've ever posted in this thread.

[NapisaurusRex]

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I've got a few of 'erotic' illustrations I'm dying to share but this obviously isn't the place for it.

I am more than happy to give you my email...

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some of those posts here are actually cringe inducing.

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I added padme to fb for the sole purpose of being able to fap to her pics

[Emily]

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I didn't want to ask my dad to come to my graduation.

[Bone]

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I'm not looking forward to seeing my family next month after being away for a year.

[Trichomes]

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I'm not looking forward to seeing my family next month after being away for a year.

 

At least you'll get to see Bo!

[NapisaurusRex]

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I'm about to totally throw my life in the air and see where it lands