Then I had the sit down with my Mother who looked me completely dead-face and asked, "Are you really gay?"....I kind of looked at her like she had a third eye. I had only been saying this for years! But she and the rest of my family thought I was just experimenting. But, if I was actually gay...then that was an issue. I was kinda shocked. Now my family threatened to disown me.
So, I had the sit down with my girlfriend and we had to make some very important decisions. I thought about it and told her to forget me, since it would make her life better. I was trying to be selfless and put her happiness above mine. Little did I know, she had picked me over her family already. I had no idea when I broke up with her and she just left. A week later I went to chase her down, but her parents kept saying she wasn't home. I called her phone and no answer. I sent her like 20 e-mails. No response. I finally went to her firm and that is when I got the news.
She had accepted a job offer in Paris. My Heart sank. She was gone and I let her go. I never recovered from that break up. I couldn't fall in love with another woman again, no one could replace her, no matter how hard I tried.
Oddly, I ended up marrying a guy later on in life. But, I don't have the same love for him as I did with Christine. She's the reason why I went to Paris to further my training. I had hopes of finding her and apologizing. But, that never happened....I wonder is she's married now and if she even thinks of me.
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