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[Alexiel]

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Dear God...
It's me, Alexiel.
I know we don't really see eye to eye. Talk even.
Me not really believing you and all, but... well... I'm hurting, scared, and desperate.
But like good Ol' Ben Kenobi, you're my only hope.
Please... just this once... please help me.
Help me be a better person. Help me be stronger. Help me be enough.

See, as you probably already know I... at least it feels like I'm about to lose the only thing I value more than life itself.
Even if became the world's richest, sexiest person tomorrow nothing compares to...
NOTHING and no one will ever be as valuable or important as...
Well, you know.
I'm fighting. Adapting. Giving it my all, but I honestly don't know if it's enough.

I think it's too late and it's all my fault. 

I know... it's my fault but please...
Please help me. Help us.

I don't want to lose...

I'd give and do anything just please.... please please please, I'm begging you...
Send me to hell for eternal damnation with no chance of salvation if you must just please....

Take anything and everything else from me if you must but please not...

Just let me keep this in life at least. I"m begging you let me keep this...

I'll do anything. Anything at all.

[Rocket]

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23 days

[sprockets]

I can't appreciate expensive scotch. Tried a scotch flight last night with 3 different Macallan - Gold, Amber and Sienna. Aside from Gold having the least flavour and Sienna having the most burn I couldn't really tell the difference. Although perhaps that just comes with time.

[MelodyPond]

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I've screwed myself in over 6m NP since I've been back doing trades on the TP. I thought I was getting good/fair deals but I didn't. My mom always told me- "do in haste, repent in leisure", meaning don't be too quick to do something or you'll regret it. Now I do regret it because I needed every bit of NP I was to get.

[Mishelle]

It's 10:30 am but i really want to get drunk

[Kass]

It's 10:30 am but i really want to get drunk

 

Do ittttttt. It's break Or if it isn't for you, fuck it and do it anyways 

[Alexiel]

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fucked up so royally i had to take two sleeping pills just to end this nightmare of a day that im solely responsible for. Such a smegging gd idiot. Never have i wanted them to kick in faster than i do now. Expect to be out at least 12 hours but so gd ashamed of myself ill probably take 2 more as soon as i wake up. Ugh, why am i such an idiot at times? Stupid stupid Alexiel. I'm better than that. Like wtf me?

[NapisaurusRex]

I can't appreciate expensive scotch. Tried a scotch flight last night with 3 different Macallan - Gold, Amber and Sienna. Aside from Gold having the least flavour and Sienna having the most burn I couldn't really tell the difference. Although perhaps that just comes with time.

 It was pretty though!
 

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I've screwed myself in over 6m NP since I've been back doing trades on the TP. I thought I was getting good/fair deals but I didn't. My mom always told me- "do in haste, repent in leisure", meaning don't be too quick to do something or you'll regret it. Now I do regret it because I needed every bit of NP I was to get.

I love this color.

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fucked up so royally i had to take two sleeping pills just to end this nightmare of a day that im solely responsible for. Such a smegging gd idiot. Never have i wanted them to kick in faster than i do now. Expect to be out at least 12 hours but so gd ashamed of myself ill probably take 2 more as soon as i wake up. Ugh, why am i such an idiot at times? Stupid stupid Alexiel. I'm better than that. Like wtf me?

Then don't do it. I mean... come on. Own up to what you've done and felt and work through it emotionally and mentally instead of with drugs.

[Mishelle]

At work I hang out with this group of vets and they're always talking about this guy who has a sex tape and apparently his dick is abnormally huge. I finally got to meet this guy at a party on Monday and he does indeed look like a lawn gnome but he had a nice personality, he smoked me out and if his dick is as big as they say it is id hit it. I forgot his name tho and he's moving to Iowa.

Do ittttttt. It's break Or if it isn't for you, fuck it and do it anyways

I decided to have some class about it and wait till 12:30.

[Lollita]

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I'm talking again with my ex >. <

[Katya]

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Thinking about pretending I'm sick so I don't have go to to our new year festivities, although it would be a shame not to wear that dress. Why lord didn't you make me a social monster why.

[Thepeopleschampion]

Trying to find a way to explain how i failed 2 subjects in my uni xD

[Fikri]

Trying to find a way to explain how i failed 2 subjects in my uni xD

 

i always blame my lecturers for failing to teach me.

[Katya]

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Ate too much, drank too much, had too much sex (please, there's no such thing) during this week. The ye olde Greek hedonists would love me.

[rezpirate]

I spent $130 on makeup

[Mishelle]

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theres this guy that I used to know, but not really. My freshmen year of college I was in the BSU. The cal state bsu and the miracosta bsu was really close and we would party together. But even then we weren't friends. I had no Idea he existed until I ran into him online. I used to be a part of this Kanye West fansite and He said that he knew me from the BSU and knew my friends. I don't remember him at all but he remembered me. We would talk but mostly about social justice and Black empowerment, it never really got personal because he had gotten married and had a kid on the way. Now out of nowhere he's messaging me saying that him and his wife are separating and it's because she cheated on him and he confessed to her that he still has feelings for me. Apparently they had a conversation and he admitted to her that he had feelings for me because she kept pressing the issue. It kind of makes sense because a couple months ago she followed me on Twitter when we've never had a conversation and added me on Facebook but never spoke to me. I don't get it tho. Feelings? Wth? We never really talked like that for him to have any kind of feelings about me. But I told him that I'd give him a chance but we'd hang out but I'm not dating him or doing anything like that because I don't want to validate his wife's feelings that I'm some kind of vindictive man stealer.

Edited by Mishelle, 01 January 2016 - 02:54 AM.

[Rauul]

Hate new year ! 12:30 Am and i was sleeping 

fuck you new year !

[Kass]

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It's been a while since I've practiced my trumpet (okay, like 2 weeks but that's a while for me) and I kind of don't want to...

[Coops]

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I think I'm depressed again. I'm so numb. Everything is boring. I don't get excited about anything. Nothing really tastes good.

[Adam]

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I think I'm depressed again. I'm so numb. Everything is boring. I don't get excited about anything. Nothing really tastes good.

My life for the last 4 years.

[Coops]

My life for the last 4 years.

I was depressed for over a decade until 2014, when I got help. But it's hitting me again with a fucking vengeance. I just wanna crawl under a rock and die. 

[Dont]

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I licked my last girlfriends asshole. Post shower of course

[Swar]

I'm tired of feeling uncomfortable around my cousin whenever her boyfriend is around. And that's ridiculous, because she's as close to me as my sister (or even more). But knowing that he's jealous or whatever stupid thing he feels, makes it inevitable.

[Gnome]

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I licked my last girlfriends asshole. Post shower of course

me too! Ain't nothing wrong with tongue'n the bung.

[Kass]

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I hate pretty much all of my friends.

Correction: I reaaaally hate all of my friends.

Edited by Kass, 02 January 2016 - 08:01 PM.