Just woke up, and already feel it fleeing.
This is like the past part and all I remember.
My wife, mom, and dad (I was adopted by my grandparents so grandmom and grandpa if it helps visualize) had just finish eating at a Chinese restaurant (probably buffet) in a mall (possibly the one in Enid, OK? Looked similar yet different.)
I'm about to drive off with the missus in the car but I take a "short cut" which woulda been fine but I turned the wrong direction because it looked like there was a bridge over this like 20'x20' wide 10' deep pit.
Thing is there was no bridge. Just two wooden... idk... extensions that only partially go across but don't actually connect to each other.
So the car falls in nose first.
We're freaking out.
Feels like a longer, more deadly drop than it actually is.
Then it's suddenly, quickly over as we snap back to actuality.
It... hurts. My car is my baby (in the dream it's my old 1997 red Monte Carlo and not my actual car now).
But it's okay. I see the Chinese restaurant manager take off the $230 sign from the car hanging on the wall (a black Jaguar E-Type 3.8) and we receive a replacement Monte Carlo for that price.
As we drive off I realize and ask "Why didn't we get the car the price tag came off of? Why this?"
Next we're out of the car and walking down the pathway in the mall itself.
Down through the foodcourt.
A row of tables are in the middle, walking space on each side, then stores on each side of that.
x x x x x M x x
I notice my ex.
The single ex that had the most influence (for worse) on my life.
The bi-polar, redheaded, mother (of then one/two), medically discharged Marine ex that may or may not have actually cheated on me in the end. Wouldn't put it past her.
We continue walking on to... idk... nowhere in particular? I don't... remember now....
But I have the feeling that the others don't even notice her since they really don't know who she is (my wife and father/grandfather)... well... specifically what she looks like.
In the dream it also feels like that she (Meghan) and I... idk if we've been "sensing" each other the entire time we've both been at the mall or if we've see each other, acknowledged each other, and continued about our life as if not.
But at that moment, as we passed her sitting at her "food court" table... I couldn't help but whisper her name "Meghan" and she looks up, stares at me, gets up, and starts trotting over towards me.
I grab dad & we run.
The missus is clueless as to what's going up but she tries to keep up.
Dad & I dodge into an ice cream & candy shop with the missus diving in soon after.
They're looking at the menu.
I'm huntched down low trying to hide at leg level while peaking outside the glass window.
Part of the windows have like a frosty, etched in design so part of my view is blocked I noticed but it didn't actually affect my view in the dream.
I see her.
Storming my way.
There were no other people in that area.
Just her marching towards me.
Left right, left right.
Swinging her arms angrily.
It's like by actually speaking her name... idk...
I felt like it was me poking fun, playing with fire, etc. yet there was really no reason for her to act/react this way outside of the dream.
In real life we haven't talked in YEARS and even then it was peaceful (she felt bad for how she treated me, wanted to apologize and be friends but... by that time I'm too fucked up and continue to have trust issues so... yeah...)
I distinctively remember she was wearing this dark, forest green vest over a white, dressier, long sleeved shirt.
The dark green and that fiery hair....
She marches on past the store at first.
Almost cartoony... us ducking into a store and she just continuing forward as if she (somehow) didn't see it happen being almost directly behind us the entire time.
And that's when I woke up.
And that's when I realized that mental, emotional abuse aside... I miss her and long to see her again...
That I still have feelings for her despite having such absolute hatred for her in my heart...
She looked so beautiful in that dark green vest...
Edited by AkihabaraKnight, 26 January 2015 - 10:53 PM.