Yeah. We were going to have one with the financial support from my mom, using money from my late brother's SGLI. But when I disowned my dad that went out the door real fucking fast. We're too poor to do anything proper with me unable to work at the moment. My husband really, really wants to give me a beautiful wedding and reception with our friends. But I don't talk to it much about it anymore to him because after it went out the door, I felt incredibly let down (by my mom) and depressed about it all. Like I had started planning it, bought a discounted wedding dress (which is in a box in my closet), and shit.. but then yeah.. I disowned my dad for being an abusive piece of shit. So now, my mom won't help, even though she promised 5 grand to me, to help pay for it and stuff. I don't want to get my hopes up about it and it never happen. I've been married for four years as of December 19th this year, so I don't see it happening anytime soon.
Edit: And I feel so stupid and guilty over wanting a beautiful wedding ceremony, when being married is so much more than that. But I've never really done much for myself, ever. My parents have never done anything special for me ever. And I just want to feel like a fucking princess for once.
I just saw this so sorry for being late.
I volunteer if you ever decide to, to officiate your ceremony 
I'm ordained to officiate them! 
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